Scleroderma and Rheumatoid Arthritis have both done a number on my body and my mind. Having to cope with my body looking different and behaving differently, seemingly overnight, has been a struggle of mine. Pain, difficulty and inability has made me shy away from things I loved to do in my past active life. It has made workout schedules inconsistent and sometimes nonexistent. I has caused me to not go on adventures with friends in fear of not being able to do simple things which would bring unnecessary attention to me and my "disabilities". It has made me put off or limit many of my passions like performing (like, really performing and I'm not talking about standing in front of a microphone reciting some poetry).