Live the #LovePowerLife
Yesterday a good friend of mine and I went to the movies and saw The Revenant starring Leonardo Di Caprio. The story, however fictionalized for entertainment, was in fact based on true events. Di Caprio plays legendary Hugh Glass, an 1800s trapper that was left for dead by his team after being brutally mauled by a grizzly bear. The cinematography was so captivating that my friend and I commented later on how it felt like we both were there with him braving the cold trying to survive. The film was basically about revenge and the tenacity to live to enact this revenge. At least, that's what I gathered from a surface standpoint. But I honestly feel it was more than that. We were fed these icicled golden nuggets of love, family and benevolence wrapped in pelts of determination and drive. I was inspired to think and consider my life while watching this film.
No matter how mangled Glass' body was he kept pushing. Unable to talk or move in the beginning he didn't let that stop him. Despite being weeks and 1500 miles away from his camp he braved blizzards, treacherous river rapids, the prospects of being killed by man or beast, he pushed on. EVERYDAY. He had a vision and was clear on that vision. He did whatever he needed to do. Things that I as a vegetarian would not know how I could bring myself to do like catch fish with my bare hands and rip it's head off with my teeth because if I don't, I may starve. Or feast on the raw carcass of a baby buffalo that had just been killed by a pack of wolves. I look at that situation cringing at the thought, but also saying in my mind that if that were me I WOULD NOT give up until the breath of life has left me.
Giving up would be too easy. And foolish. Especially if I'd already came some ways and endured much. I look at my life and can see the brutal mauling that I've bore dealing with degenerative disease preventing me from fully living out my dreams exactly the way I dreamt them. Or bearing the burden of a stormy marriage that ended in divorce. Filing bankruptcy, moving in with my dad and having to start over. It may have felt like a good time to give up because I'd lost so much, but I'd come such a long way mentally, emotionally and spiritually that it would have been foolish to quit.
I'm seeking to avenge my life but not in the way of bringing harm to anyone. It's more like forgiveness than anything else. Accepting that there are going to be troubles along the way and that I don't have to let them break me. Not my body, not my mind and certainly not my spirit. This reassures and fuels me. Those things that happened in my past helped to shape who I am today. I wouldn't change a thing, nor will I shame myself for my failures. I did not just roll over and die when things got tough. I made some hard decisions and took some drastic steps. All in the name of survival and growth. I'm growing everyday and I'm looking forward to even more growth.
What horrible situations in life have you found it hard to come back from and just wanted to give up? I'd love to know. Leave a comment to continue the conversation.
Spread Love. Be Love. Live a #LovePowerLife
Ever since I was young, I wanted to make a difference in the world. As an activist at heart and a flower child of sorts, my mom would constantly ask me "where did you come from?"-haha! Now that I'm older I have a clear understanding and I'm confident to say that I come from LOVE.